*gr* fits best my mood at the moment

At the moment I'm in a really bad mood. I have about 3 weeks left until courses start - okay, it's more than three weeks, but with moving and all I can't relax - and yet my parents just don't understand and the universities take their time and that's only half of it... I get in a worse mood from second to second. :(

So far I got the answers of two universities. One from Augsburg where I applied to become a teacher and the second answer was from Frankfurt/Main. There I applied for both - teacher and lawyer - and they didn't mention in the stupid letter whether I'm accepted for studies to become a teacher or a lawyer. This just sucks. And the other universities haven
t even replied so far!!! It's like hanging in the air without knowing what will happen next.

Then my Dad at the moment has to 'tear down' the machines in the building where he works. They were talking about him then working at building up another unit, but now that he has to tear the machines down already and the new unit is not yet ripe for decision. So his mood is getting worse, too, and we're the ones suffering from it. If he loses his job then I can't go to university (he had to buy the motor bike and the tractor this May) and I have no clue what to do then cause I won't be able to start job training. This always starts on September 1st and applications are only possible till January or February.

Then, my parents always complain cause I don't work during my months off... Helloo?!? First of all: soon-to-be-students don't get jobs unless it's through family members. Second: I do work! I might not work much, but I give extra tuition once a week and get some good money for it.
Now, one of Mum's friends asked me to help her out again (dunno whether I told you about last time: a man, about 50 years old, disabled who needs diapers - nothing for me, and Mum knows this!) with taking care of two little kids (1 & 4) for a while. I can take care of one little kid for half a day or so, but no way could I take care of two little kids each morning for 2-4 weeks. I'm just not patient enough and therefore it wouldn't be nice for the kids (besides: last time I agreed to take care of one 2 year old kid for Mum's friend the mother used me as a maid - and that's not my job!!!). And it would also interfere with my extra tuition. The boy, his Mum and I agreed that I'd come during the morning so that he could have the afternoon off. I said 'That's fine, I have absolutely nothing to do so we can do this the entire vacation.' and now I'm supposed to say 'Bad luck, boy, I havea job that's more important and so you have to learn the entire morning with your Mum and in the afternoon I'm there to teach you.'?!? No, I couldn't do this to him. His life is hard enough with his Mum drilling him to get good grades and forcing him to learn almost all the time. The afternoon off was a deal!!! But my parents don't understand and accept this. :(

Also, I'm the one who has to get my brother out of bed in the morning (he's almost 17) cause he has to start job training on September 1st and he goes to bed early in the morning, gets up late morning or early afternoon and is always in a bad mood. Yet, I'm the one who has to wake him up and take care o him staying out of bed (impossible!). Just today my Mum told me to look whether he's doing drugs or anything. Who am I?!?

And now, there am I: not feeling well, with a headache, feeling dizzy and who takes care of that? No one - I'm the whining person in our family... but they only know about 30 or 40% of when I don't feel well.

Okay, now I have to get back to thinking about Frankfurt/Main or Augsburg - just in case I don't get answers from any of the other universities.